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This is a transcript of the livestream.
I had two subjects that I wanted to go over. [Vulnerable Narcissism and Universal Law].
The first was about continuation of vulnerable narcissism. I don’t know if I want to start with that or if I want to dive into this other thing, which is about acting from inner coherence in regards to when to bite your tongue, when to speak up. So maybe I’ll just do both in this video. And I don’t even like videos. I’m not a video guy, but whatever. There’s a purpose to that, so I put my bashfulness to the side.
So let’s talk about circling back to the first video I did about vulnerable narcissism.
Vulnerable narcissists don’t take responsibility. And narcissism is a spectrum. I’m not talking about the DSM medical definition, which is retarded anyway. But human beings, everybody has narcissistic tendencies. There are moments when I can be narcissistic and I catch myself in ego. Basically, when we’re in ego, we’re narcissistic. That’s just the nature of how it works.
There are subtleties, but if you have unintegrated trauma and you’re not aware of your memory gaps, which is the trauma that’s not integrated, right, because you haven’t actually felt the emotion around the painful experience, it creates a memory gap, which eventually can grow into a spirit of trauma, which is like a demon, basically. So if you don’t heal this stuff, it runs your life and you operate under these traumatic programs.
Now, vulnerable narcissists are a specific type. They don’t like to take accountability, and they’re always the victim. I didn’t do anything wrong. It’s not me. I never did anything. No, no, of course you didn’t do anything wrong.
But a healthy ego can acknowledge that, oh man, I raised my voice at you, or I snapped. I was inconsiderate because I didn’t factor in your feelings. Whatever the case might be, someone who has a healthy ego — and you need your ego. You can’t kill your ego. That’s not the point. You need your ego here in duality. It helps us to navigate, but it shouldn’t be driving. Your ego should not be holding the steering wheel. The steering wheel is in the hands of spirit, the creative spirit, which flows through you when you’re connected, when you live in faith, when you’re in humility, gratitude, coherence.
So people talk about meditation. What is meditation? It’s not just time on a cushion. You’re not just sitting there. That is a physical practice to foster awareness, self-awareness, awareness of your mind, your inner world, of reality, of things as they are. But you can meditate in your day-in and day-out life. You can be walking around, washing the dishes, at work, and be in a meditative state. And that means you’re present, but you’re also coherent.
So the coherence is really what meditation is. It’s about being aligned, which puts you into the present moment as well. If you’re aligned, you’re present. You can be present, but incoherent. However, if you’re coherent, you’re automatically present.
When I fall out of coherence — and I do, because I’m a human being, and if somebody tells you that they don’t, I would run the other way — when I fall out of coherence, I notice it. And what does that feel like? My healthy ego, which is my navigator, because it’s moved over, I’ve basically surrendered my ego to the divine. I said, I can’t figure this out. I’m in faith. And so I surrendered my ego to the divine, and then the divine can work through me based on my archetype, my constitution, what I’ve learned, my experiences, this being that I am.
So the soul inhabits the body. The body is just the vehicle. It gets exchanged when, you know, 100,000 miles, the car, you can get a tune-up and whatever, but we get a new one, right? Every 80 to 100 years, if you’re lucky to live that long. My grandfather got to 96.
So vulnerable narcissists, they don’t have healthy shame. They don’t know what it feels like. They only know toxic shame, and they don’t like it. Why? Because they were abused, and they don’t want to feel that. And so instead, they wall off. They put up a block. Stonewalling is a big thing. It’s one of their go-to strategies.
And so the ego is incredibly fragile. A fragile ego is a sign of someone who hasn’t healed. A person who’s on the path of healing and self-discovery, they are willing to see aspects of themselves that cause them pain. If someone’s not willing to look at a part of themselves that is causing someone else pain, especially if you’re in a relationship with your partner — if you come to your partner and you say, hey, I have a need. We all have emotions, but we also have needs. So you come to your partner and you say, I have a need. My need is, I need you to express compassion when I tell you that I’m in pain. I need you to be compassionate for me in that moment. That’s one of my needs. You can express that. And your partner can receive it or not receive it.
But if you’re in a healthy, well-adjusted relationship, when your lover comes to you with a request, you put your ego aside and you really want to connect with what their request is because it’s important. Now, someone who’s a vulnerable narcissist can’t do that because they immediately get defensive, their guard goes up, they get protective, because they’re filtering with their traumatic overlay. They’re not in the present moment. They have an unconscious memory from the past that they’re not even aware of, but the sensation, the feeling of that, is with them in this present moment as you’re sharing whatever it is you’re sharing about your need.
So they can’t feel the vulnerability, the compassion. They can do it mentally, but emotionally they’re guarded, they’re blocked. And so that’s vulnerable narcissism, basically. They say, I didn’t do anything, it’s not me, I’m innocent, blah, blah, blah.
Whereas in a healthy, well-adjusted relationship, you will say things like, oh, I’m sorry that I had that impact on you. I see how that hurt you. I can reflect on my actions. Because we’re not talking about you being damaged as a human being. That’s the toxic shame. The healthy shame is, oh, my action, my behavior, what I did. And that’s okay. We make mistakes. We trip, we fall. That’s how we learn. How are you supposed to learn and grow and heal if you can’t make mistakes? You can’t. It’s impossible. It’s actually a trap. So mistakes are good and acknowledgement is better.
So that’s vulnerable narcissism. I don’t even know if there’s anything more I want to say about that, but that’s essentially what I wanted to cover about it.
The other thing I wanted to talk about, which relates to coherence as well, is how do you act? How do you behave? How do you function? Where do you get your marching orders from in this life? Does it come from laws, outside laws that society creates? And they’re different depending on the year. If we go back to the 1980s, the laws were all very different from what they are today. They vary country by country. They vary by jurisdiction. City, municipality, town.
In the 60s and 50s before integration, it was legal for blacks in the United States to be separated, to be segregated. So you had fountains for whites and for colored. They called it colored. No dogs and no coloreds, they would say. That was legal. Does that make it moral and ethical?
Now, I’m not here to preach to you about morality. I don’t get my morals or my ethics from outside of myself. How do I know what’s right? Because I’m connected to myself, to my higher self. That’s how I know what’s right. And it changes in any given moment and in any situation. You can’t just take this specific thing and apply it to every situation in your life. It doesn’t really work that way. You can approach it that way, but that would be mechanical. That’s not actually living in the present moment. And you’re certainly not coherent if you’re trying to function from some kind of a memory. That’s not being in pure action, and that’s not being in pure perception, which is what Krishnamurti talked about.
So I’m going to read a couple of things. I made a post, and it’s called *Sovereignty Isn’t Transcendent*. I said it’s actually kind of natural. There’s a peaceful grounding in knowing no one is your authority. So this is about being your own authority, being sovereign, and not giving your authority away. Countries are sovereign. But human beings are sovereign too. We’ve just been programmed to have an outside authority, hence an author, hence the police and policy. And for king and country, for queen and country, for president, for nation, for patriotism, for mother Russia, for the fatherland, tribalism, on and on and on and so forth. It’s all divisive. All of it keeps humanity divided. It’s nonsense. It’s an old pattern.
And why is it still reinforced? Because it’s a control system. It works really well if you divide people up into all these different groups. You can easily control them. You can corral them. You can influence them. You can predict their behaviors. They’re manageable. It makes perfect sense. That’s why it’s dumb.
So I said there’s a peaceful grounding in knowing no one is your authority. You answer only to spirit. And some people might be like, you’re crazy. What does that even mean? Well, when you’re connected, you know you’re connected. And I’m not talking about bliss or ecstasy or bathing in the light, whatever they call it in new age Christianity circles. I’m hip to it. It’s not like I think about this stuff intellectually. I’ve been to the churches. I know the people. I’ve tried it out. I’ve lived in Zen centers. I’ve lived in various monasteries. I’ve tried Tibetan Buddhism. I’m speaking from experience. I’m not just rattling shit off that I saw in a video on YouTube or on a Substack clip. I’m talking about my life, things that I’ve experienced, that I’ve integrated, and that I know. I’m not sharing things that are, well, maybe, I think. No, no, no. I’m talking to you from my lived, holistic life experience. And it took me a while to understand and put all this stuff together.
So there was a comment that somebody made, Mark made, and he said, all right, the question is, how do you not come across as an arrogant asshole when you literally stop respecting any human-centric authority? When you tell people you answer only to spirit, it makes you sound like you don’t obey human laws anymore, conform to any of the norms of society. And it really alienates people. I guess if you truly do answer only to spirit, then you don’t give a shit about how you come across to your fellow humans. But it’s a very hard path to tread in practice. And he’s right, anyway.
So he goes on to say, when I’m saying you, I don’t mean you personally, Michael. I mean one, as in any one of us. And those are great questions, and Mark is right.
There was another answer from Banished Contradictions, which was a good one. So my response was, honestly, some people probably think I’m an arrogant asshole, and they do. People might think that because of things I say. They take my words in a clip, which is what the media does, right? They just cut things up, take it out of context, and people will make judgments about you, snap judgments, in an instant. They don’t know anything about you, but they’ll make snap judgments. That’s egoic, when you judge from the mind.
Now, when you are connected, you can feel it. Jonathan Adampants used to talk about this. He said, when you know, you know. And so when you’re connected, you know. You can’t be deceived anymore. The spell doesn’t work on you. You’ve broken the spell, and it doesn’t work. So you know when you know because something gets activated. There is this intuition. It’s a higher knowing. And the more you do it, the more you live in faith, the more you cultivate it. It’s not a muscle, but it reacts in a very similar way. Call it your spiritual power.
And so I said, honestly, some people probably think I’m an arrogant asshole. And I’m most certainly not. And I’m not. I actually genuinely care about humanity. I care about people. I care about respecting people. But I’m also not going to fucking bite my tongue and bend over so someone can stick it in just so I can maintain political correctness and politeness and keep the peace. Sorry. I don’t even know what to say. It’s just so ludicrous. If everybody just shuts up and doesn’t do anything, then evil runs amok.
And some people think evil doesn’t exist. They’re like, no, no, it’s just our disintegrated chattel. Well, it’s a manifestation of our disintegrated chattel. But there’s most certainly evil and it exists. And it serves a function in the growth of your soul because it’s like the counterforce. If there is no force, then existence is boring. There’s no point in being here. And so from the vantage point of millions of incarnations for the soul to grow and this being a dream within a dream within a dream for divinity, you can only know what you know through your state of conscious awareness. You can’t go outside of it. Sometimes I struggle explaining some of these things or even articulating it. So let me just skip that.
Anyway, I said, I know exactly what you mean, Mark, but it’s no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society. That’s Krishnamurti. And why did I quote that? Because you have to know that it’s a sick society and you have to do something because the universe responds to coherence, which is action.
So when your action, your inner world, is aligned with your outer world, that’s your action. Your inner world is your beliefs, your ideas, your thoughts, your emotions. When all of that is integrated and aligned with your actions, you’re coherent, and we bounce in and out of coherence. I’ll spend weeks or months in coherence and then weeks and months out of it. And then maybe a day I’m in it, a day I’m out. There’s no rhyme or reason to it. It just depends on your individual state and what you have to heal because all of us have healing and there’s layers. And so we spiral. We spiral up and then we spiral back down. But now when you spiral down, it’s like taking five or ten steps back. You take ten steps forward and then you take five back. But now you have vantage point. You have awareness into your patterns, into what you’re doing, into how you act, into your triggers. And all of a sudden you can make a different decision. You can make a different choice. And that’s insight. That is how you change. And so if you do that over and over again, then you can choose a different outcome. And that’s how we grow. So there is actually utility to sliding backwards.
So to Mark’s question, I said simply, you simply have to stop giving a rat’s ass. And I kind of curtailed myself because I wanted to say, you have to stop giving a fuck about what people think. So you have to stop giving a rat’s ass about what other people think. What they think of you is their problem, not yours. And it’s true. What other people think of me is not my problem. It’s their problem. Because if I worry myself with what every person out there, or any person out there, thinks about me, I give my power away to them, just like that.
Now, I care about what my partner thinks about me because I love her and I want to have a healthy relationship with her that’s built on faith, trust, compassion, love, devotion, care, consideration, all of the qualities of a healthy relationship. But if I extend that to society at large and I’m concerned about what people think of me, then all of a sudden it starts muting my self-expression. All of a sudden now I can’t express. And why is that? Because really the only judge that I need to be concerned with is my higher self, is spirit. And I can feel when I’m in alignment or when I’m out of coherence. I know.
And so when I’m out of coherence, when my behavior is not what I hoped it would be, and you can reflect on that after, perhaps not necessarily in the moment, but when you’ve cooled off, I can see that, okay, I wasn’t fully in coherence there. And then I take corrective action. I can apologize. I can make amends. This is what human beings do.
Now, Buddhism or Western Buddhism doesn’t include apology. It just ignores all of that. And apology, apologia, it’s vital to humility. If you don’t apologize — apology comes from a healthy ego, which is a navigator. Apology comes from spirit. Apology comes from feeling that something is off. You’re not aligned. It’s not a mental thing. You don’t think it through. You don’t rationalize it. It’s a feeling. And it motivates you. It triggers healthy shame. And the healthy shame is what tells us, oh, I was out of alignment. So it has utility. It has a function.
So going back to Mark’s response, or my response to Mark, I said it’s not your problem what people think about you because half the time they’ll like you and half the time they won’t. Half the time group A will like you, depending on what you say, and the other half group B won’t. And then it’ll switch. Because unless you’re speaking to another person that’s also in the know and that’s also integrated, connected to spirit, the creative spirit, then they’re not. Most people live in ego. And we function from ego and we judge from ego.
And so when Christ said, he without sin cast the first stone, how many of us have not done things that hurt others? I’m certainly not excluded from that. I’ve fallen on my face more times than I can remember, but I’ve also gotten up and learned from it.
However, the expression about the beam in your eye, like you’re pointing out the sliver in somebody else’s eye, but you’ve got the beam in your eye — what does that mean? It actually means that you’re coming at it from ego. You don’t see your own mirror. You can’t see your own shadow, your own limitations, your own blind spots. And you’re pointing out other people’s blind spots. And you’re doing it from ego.
Now, when you’re in spirit, when you’re connected to your higher self, which is your authentic true self, which is the expression of your archetype and your constitution, it’s not the same. It’s apples and oranges. And so the expression about the beam in the eye and casting stones, they’re out of context because our context as a civilization has been so inverted that people are only coming at it from the egoic, rational, linear, logical mind. They’re not coming at it from the holistic, integrated sense. They’re not coming at it from the perspective and from the state of what Buddha was talking about or what Lao Tzu was talking about or Rumi or Yeshua.
And so I said half the time they will like you and hate you the other half, regardless of how you act. They don’t even know what they want because they have no insight into their own inner world. Just look at the message of Christ, true love. And of course people fear true love. People want conditional love. Most relationships are conditional. They’re codependent and they’re conditional. And it’s rare, truly rare, to find couples that have worked and processed through this stuff. And it’s not like it ever ends. There’s a tipping point. There’s a point where you’re aware of it, but that doesn’t mean it ends. It’s ongoing. It’s an infinite onion. There’s always another layer. And so you spiral up, then you spiral down, you spiral up.
And that’s why they even call it conspiracy, because it’s to conspire. You with, con, and spire. Spire is from respiration, to breathe. So to breathe together, to share, to rise together, to spire up. And so they inverted it, and they gave it conspiracy. And then they weaponized it with JFK and gave us conspiracy theory. So language is a spell. If you can’t see how the spell is used to manipulate you, you’re very spellbound. It’s not easy to break. It’s very hard to break it. But once it’s broken, they can’t manipulate you anymore. It doesn’t work.
And in order to break it, there’s a three-part circuit that needs to be completed. Individuation, which is shadow integration, personally and collectively. So my own disintegrated aspects as well as everything in the collective. You can’t ignore stuff like Epstein, even though it’s loaded with poison pills on purpose by design to get people to throw the baby out with the bathwater. This is what they do. The dark occult will point the fingers at itself in hopes of getting people to disassociate because the message is too painful to reflect upon. And if your shadow is not integrated, you certainly can’t integrate the shadow of the world. All you can do is blame the world, blame everyone, blame another group, point your finger at someone. It’s the hat people. The majority of the hat people don’t even know what they don’t know. They’re regular people who have been indoctrinated and programmed. I don’t want to get into the Khazarian Mafia (KM and MK-Ultra) and the Black Nobility on this. It’s so long. There’s a whole other thing.
So they fear true love. And as long as your actions are led by spirit and you reflect on them based on your healthy shame, which is vital to be a holy, integrated human being, you’ll be in good company. Who’s going to judge you? Another person? You give your power away. You can’t receive your validation from another human being.
And when you connect with another human being that’s also sovereign and in their power, you don’t judge. You can see each other right away. You’re like, ah, you know, and ah, you know. And you don’t need to say much. You might have different experiences and some different opinions about things here and there. But by and large, you speak a similar language. You can understand each other without saying very much. You can say very little and get a lot across.
Plus, you can never be perfect as a human being here in duality. What is perfection anyway? What does that mean? Once you’re perfect, you don’t need a body. Then duality is done. You don’t need to do this again. The bodhisattvas choose to come back to help humanity. That’s their choice.
So being perfect is not the point. And I think I already said, what laws? They differ by country, by year, by fashion. Your laws need to be inner. That’s what ethics and morality is. It’s not taught. Parents can teach it to children if they are connected to spirit. But that’s very rare in this day and age. Parents who are raising children who are connected and who are not indoctrinated into some form of religion or cult, which is the majority of Western American Christianity who swear that they know what’s best for everyone. And you can see through it.
So Christ is not someone to be ridden. He’s not a horse. You don’t ride him. You ride yourself. He was pointing us back to ourselves. But what the matrix has done is taken him and made a martyr out of him and a deity out of him as well, in the sense of like, you need to worship him. Why would the divine want your worship, which is worship, which is also a spell?
You are the truth. I am the truth, the way, and the life. No one comes to the Father but through me. That’s you. I actually woke up at like two o’clock in the morning when I was living in North Idaho, and that was a crazy story about what happened. That was a rough period. Lots of periods of rough stuff, but it all contributed to the growth.
So I woke up at like two in the morning and I realized: I am the truth, I am the way, I’m the life. It’s in you. You’re not supposed to ride Christ. You’re not supposed to ride Buddha or Lao Tzu or Rumi. But their language is the same. The words they use are different, but the message is very similar. And why is that? They speak across different cultures, different timelines, different epochs and eras, but the message is very similar. How could that be? Because the message is of love, which is truth. The highest form of love is truth.
And that’s why it can’t be your truth or my truth. There’s no such thing. There is truth. But there is no your truth or my truth. And the New Age movement has intentionally diluted it and inverted, perverted, distorted it every which way possible. So you have all these yahoos running around. My truth, my truth. What do you mean your truth? Well, my truth is different from your truth. But then there’s no truth. It’s a circle jerk. It’s insanity. And you can’t have a conversation and actually get anywhere because you say, well, that’s your truth, but my truth is different.
Coherence is one of my favorite words, but so is retard because retardation is the slowing of growth. Something that’s retarded is slow to grow. And that is the state of conscious awareness right now. We’ve been told that, no, no, we’re waking up. I’m not even talking about the woke crowd. Forget about that. But that there’s an awakening happening, the new earth. There’s an awakening happening to a new earth? Really? When’s the last time you met another person in the flesh that radiated integration, positivity, and no spiritual bypass? I don’t meet a lot of people in the flesh like that. I think I’ve met maybe two or three on Substack.
So I would agree that there are more people waking up, and I would say that’s true. But to say that there is this massive awakening happening around the world, this is controlled opposition. This is not true. You can feel it. And I think it’s going to be tough for the next probably 20 years or so until we get out of the Pluto in Aquarius transit, which is how long it took for the American Revolution, French Revolution, and Industrial Revolution to kind of all transpire and come about. So we’re in for some shit, especially this year and next year.
And so, yeah, what laws? They differ by country. I said my laws are inner, not outer. I answer to universal law, not to maritime admiralty law with its legalese fiction. Just watch any one of these yahoos from C-SPAN. I don’t even know what they’re called because I don’t care and I can’t remember their titles, but any of the government representatives, spokesperson for the government, whatever their fancy titles are — listen to what they say. It’s word salad. They say nothing. There’s no substance. They are regurgitating recycled lettuce that’s been chewed by rabbits. And it means nothing. Their words are completely empty. They’re devoid of any meaning whatsoever. And if you listen to it after the spell is broken, you just watch it with utter disbelief. You’re just like, who listens to this?
But it makes sense. People who are still under the spell and choosing sides and groups, that’s who listens to it. People who are looking for an outside savior, an outside authority. People who are looking for validation from their fellow human beings, from another teacher, another guru, a guide.
Maybe I should say something about guides. Beware of guides, okay? You are your own guide. Nobody is your guide. People are like, well, we need touchstones. We need light workers or whatever words you want to use. We are mirrors for each other. This is true. We can inspire each other. This is also true. But nobody can lead you. Nobody knows you better than you. So if you give your power away to another person because you think they figured it out, you’re not on your path. You’re on somebody else’s path, which is the reason that people join Freemasonry. It’s the reason they join secret societies. They get information, which is what? You are in a line, in formation. You’re standing in formation, like in the military.
So the universal law is do no harm. That’s it. It’s actually quite simple. Live your life in a way that you do not harm others. That doesn’t mean you don’t defend your boundaries. That doesn’t mean you let people shit and piss and kick you in the face and just turn the other cheek and say, please sir, can I have another? No. This is also new age mumbo jumbo. You can set limits, you can set boundaries, and when they’re not respected, you can enforce them. What are you going to do, bend over, turn over, ad infinitum? That’s insane. Why would you want to do that anyway?
The law is no violence. Violence is not self-defense or setting boundaries or limits. Violence is aggression. Don’t be aggressive. Don’t be an aggressor. Do not impede the sovereignty of another human being. Now, if another human being is stepping on your own sovereignty, why would you not be empowered to defend and protect your own well-being? How does that make any sense? It doesn’t.
So the whole of the law is to do no harm. And the rest is ornamental. And quite frankly, it’s ego functioning in the resolution of the problems that it creates. So why do we have all these laws? Because people are disconnected. They need laws because they don’t know who they are. And so they say, well, how can we live in anarchy? Anarchy means without law. [Correction, it means without rulership — sorry nerve pain and brain isn’t firing on all cylinders! I knew it was off when I said it.]
[Archon means ruler, so anarchy means without outside rulership.]
But it doesn’t mean unlawful. There are universal laws. When you’re connected, you feel it. You know. You know killing is wrong. You know stealing is wrong. Taking theft. So it’s all about theft, right? Mark Passio talked about this. Taking a life, taking property, taking what’s not yours, money, taxes, it’s all theft.
The last thing about this was Christ took the switch to the money changers and flipped the tables at the temple. So this is an expression of spirit basically being incensed. So this is someone who has been marketed as a very grounded, calm person, and here’s this moment that doesn’t quite connect with the rest of the language and the Sermon on the Mount.
ntentionally hurting others or they don’t have awareness of their impact on others.
Spiritual Practice
You can’t separate spiritual practice from physical life. There is no such thing as transcending duality. It’s a myth. A phantom.
Whoever believes you can transcend the physical world doesn’t understand what spiritual practice is. Spiritual practice is learning how to be in the world but not of it.
It means cultivating your Soul.
Thank you for supporting the collective expansion of human consciousness.
I recommend getting the book, *The Gospel of Thomas*, which is from the Nag Hammadi Caves. It has a lot of Yeshua’s original teachings and words, and it hasn’t been messed with by the church because it was basically buried for 2000 years. So the version that I like is the Jean-Yves Leloup version. He’s a French guy and he translated it. Also he has the Gospel of Paul and Mary Magdalene as well. Those are two other books.
[Correction: Gospel of Philip.]
So back to Mark’s original question about how do you not come across as an arrogant asshole in terms of society’s norms and expectations and with respect to laws, living a life. You have to decide what you’re willing to do and not willing to do. The laws and mandates that were put out on the first mandate, the regulations and all that stuff, was to force you to take an experimental vaccine, which on the mRNA side was reprogramming your biology. Who wants to take one, a toxin, but two, an experimental toxin at best at that? And so you’re of course entitled to say, no, I don’t want this, thank you very much. You can take it. You’re safe. That’s why you’re taking it. But I don’t need to. That’s also insanity, that whole argument. Oh, you took it, but now you need me to take it so you can be safe, also protected because we’re shedding. Okay. Okay. I see how that works. Yeah, that’s perfect.
So Banished Contradictions said, I think we can do this by not having to tell anyone anything. I don’t go telling anyone. I don’t give a shit about their opinions. Just because you disagree, do you comment on everything you see on social media? That’s part of the problem, isn’t it? People see everything and feel they need to comment on it. They see this post and that post and all of a sudden, oh, I need to put in my two cents. I need to show them. I need to educate them. I need to push on them. What? You need to show them? What do you need to show them?
So I simply nod along and move forward. Everything is looking for a reaction — social media, outrage porn, for example. I saw this post this morning that spiked something in me because I’m in touch with my body. I can sense it when it’s happening, and I can totally relate to that. Multitasking is not one of my strong suits anymore, especially with chronic nerve pain. So because I’m in touch with my body, I can sense when something is happening in real time, so I move along.
Someone who’s not going to engage with the post, debate, or try to change their mind, it really comes down to not giving life force energy, your loosh, your prana, your chi, to such things, in my honest opinion. Because some people and some things have to be left in the dust. You have to choose where you invest your energy. Like don’t cast your pearls to swine.
Sometimes you want to comment, fine. Leave a comment. But literally don’t leak your energy to people. That’s also disempowerment. You think you’re empowered. No, that’s false egoic empowerment. You’re disempowered. You’re high on ego. You think you’re right. Righteous anger.
Mark Passio was in righteous anger for a long time, which is why ultimately he took a pause from a lot of his stuff. He has a lot of great work, but the lack of integration in terms of the righteous anger was the issue. Because here’s the thing about righteous anger: you’re always angry. Always. Perpetually. You’re always blaming someone. But spiritual anger, from spirit I mean, it flares. It’s like a solvent. It dissolves. It spikes and then, like, two minutes later you’re okay. And that’s fine. The problem is people have been taught to hold grudges and not let people be human.
Human beings experience a range of emotions. What are we supposed to do, stuff it all, pretend like you’ve zenned everything? Zen monks have anger issues. I will tell you this. Why? Because they’re not in touch with their own anger. Because they’ve repressed it. They’ve suppressed it. You can’t repress your anger. It’ll explode eventually. It has to come out. You have to have a pressure relief valve. And I’m not talking about sublimation where you’re pounding the punching bag once or twice a week. Those practices can be helpful. No, you have to actually understand what’s underneath your anger. Why are you angry? Find the root and integrate it. Bridge the memory gap.
So, and what Banished Contradictions was saying, you don’t have to tell everyone everything. You don’t tell everyone what you think, kind of like in *The Godfather* where he smacked Sonny and said, what are you doing telling him outside, sharing your thoughts in a meeting with somebody outside the family? You don’t have to tell people what you think. Why do you have to tell everybody what you think or how you feel? I mean, I don’t. Why is it necessary?
First of all, again, you’re looking for validation if you do that. Some people don’t care. Some people are not prepared to listen. Some people are narcissists. I guess that puts them in the category of not caring. But it’s not necessary. You share with people who are ready to receive what you’re able to share. If someone can’t receive what you’re sharing, then what is the point of sharing it with them? It gets thrown back in your face. So now it’s not a gift.
So it’s 100 percent not necessary. Your inner can remain inner. You don’t have to tell people, I don’t believe in this law. You don’t have to do that. You can learn to navigate the waters calmly and with wise discernment. You don’t have to make a big splash. Be a professional diver that dives into the water and barely makes a splash, and all of a sudden you’re 30 feet under. Be like that. You don’t have to cast your pearls to swine. And guard your energy. That’s the most important thing.
So I don’t really have anything else to say. Those were the two things I wanted to cover. The first was the vulnerable narcissists, how they don’t have a healthy ego and they don’t know what healthy shame is, which is essential to be a whole integrated human being. And the last was this part about how to live from coherence and authenticity and alignment with respect to outwardly imposed laws.
So, yeah, that’s it. I’ll see you on the next one. Take care. Aho. Ubuntu. Those are good words.
Aho y Ubuntu.
—Michael Logan 🖤
About Me
I’m a former Wall Street investment banker. I walked away because that’s what my soul required. Through lived experience, I learned that real healing isn’t just about presence or alignment — it’s about coherence. Coherence is the universal language.
I write about the emerging global machinic order and the integration of mind, body, spirit, psyche, soul, and being.
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—MLS 🖤
